If You Forget Me

I love the way Neruda made the words flow so effortlessly... bittersweet though they may be.

If You Forget Me

by Pablo Neruda

I want you to know one thing.  You know how this is: if I look at the crystal moon, at the red branch of the slow autumn at my window, if I touch near the fire the impalpable ash or the wrinkled body of the log, everything carries me to you, as if everything that exists, aromas, light, metals, were little boats that sail toward those isles of yours that wait for me.  Well, now, if little by little you stop loving me I shall stop loving you little by little.  If suddenly you forget me do not look for me, for I shall already have forgotten you.  If you think it long and mad, the wind of banners that passes through my life, and you decide to leave me at the shore of the heart where I have roots, remember that on that day, at that hour, I shall lift my arms and my roots will set off to seek another land.  But if each day, each hour, you feel that you are destined for me with implacable sweetness, if each day a flower climbs up to your lips to seek me, ah my love, ah my own, in me all that fire is repeated, in me nothing is extinguished or forgotten, my love feeds on your love, beloved, and as long as you live it will be in your arms without leaving mine.

change

borrowing a line from barry manilow's song, Weekend in New England..

I feel the change comin'
--I feel the wind blow
I feel brave and daring!
I feel my blood flow

i feel the change about to come, and it's much closer than i thought!!!!

piolo pascual with rose...

hehehe...

nope, not with Rose, but with a rose! siyempre forever shy akesh, so dyahe dumikit at magpa pic! ganda ng ngiti ano? He happened to be at the helipad at the building where we also hold office. Lo and behold, he was there,! on his way to his date ata... i don't care what they say, he's one hunk of a guy!

all in all, this is a good day!

what i miss...

... having a boyfriend

maybe it's part of my monthly thing. i feel emotional and romantic. missing the intimacy and companionship one gets when in a relationship.

gosh. wag naman sana akong maging matandang dalaga ano!!!!

sick at heart

why are people sick at heart?

when there is extreme sadness over aspects of life. of course when one is broken hearted for sure. when one is also sad over things happening in one's life and can't seem to do anything about it.

i'm sick at heart, because --

1) my friend is broken-hearted
2) i'm confused and troubled over what's happening in Mindanao. People are yet again dying. Families getting displaced. increasing loss in business and productivity. Most of all, the conflict continues, and so does politicking that throws everything into chaos.
3) and something about work

golly gosh... i've gotten old! And tired. and disheartened. though not yet totally disillusioned nor hopeless.

Maybe. There is a light behind the storm clouds.

The Game of What-If

What if the Hyatt10 succeeded in July, 2005, to make President Gloria Macapagal Arroyo resign from the Presidency?

will it be better or worse now?

i think it would have been better. at least the greed that was supposedly being moderated would have been snuffed out entirely. Maybe.

Maybe the inflation, taxes, and exchange rates vis-a-vis the world economic crisis would have been better handled due to a real strong fiscal position brought about by lesser graft and corruption (if none at all) and better political character. Maybe.

Maybe Santa Claus is real and i'll get a boyfriend for a christmas gift for being a good girl this year. or was I?

Maybe

8/8/8

Last year, July 7, 2007 - 7/7/7 - I told friends that they are invited to my wedding on Aug 8, 2008. Which meant i had around 8 months to find a groom!

At that time, i was also expecting to be staying already in Australia where i thought i'll get to find my groom! Alas, fate had other things in store for me...

I changed jobs and joined a senator's office, so the australia plans were pushed back. work became demanding and the search for the groom became forgotten.

And so, 8/8/8 was yesterday. and yes, i'm still single and looking. And whenever i remember this fact, a feeling of thrill goes down my spine for that anticipation of finding someone. I also feel worry, i am, afterall, no longer young. Gosh! at 33, i envisioned 8 years ago to be with a 3 year old kid already! and a millionaire. Hmmm... fate does really have something else in mind for me, i guess...

the heart is in the right place

i know that it is not, when i wake up and feel sadness than cheer over the thought of facing another day when ones principles run aganst one's needs.

i am for freedom reigned in by social justice. i believe in history and its entitlements.

when in rome, do what the roman's do, and give to cesar, what he is due.

State of the Nation

The year I started to become keen and interested to listen to the State of the Nation Address was in 2002. I just joined the government then. i was still enthusiastic and very, very, very proud. what the president was reporting then, were our hardwork in trying bringing reforms in the government and thereby bringing better services to the people.

in 2005 until 2006, i bitterly listened to what the President reported in her SONA. I felt indignation and awe at the unbelievable nerve of a the lady who claims a better life has been given to the people.

in 2007, i only heard her talk, but didn't listen. couldn't really bear to look at her.

this year, i got curious and watched. i wanted to see hear what she has to say about the hardships that we've been experiencing. i was hoping that se might have had the sense to finally announce that she's resigning. but nothing's change...

maybe she really is delusional. it's the only cause i can think for her to look so confident, like she really believes what she was saying.

it is so sad to watch the president i used to believe in and fight for. it is so sad to see and hear her belie the true state of the nation...

Don't you worry about the situation
(A message from the telephone)
(I'm waiting for a chance to come home)
They always have to fight the alienation
They out there fighting for the state of the nation
(I realize I'm fighting alone)
When nightmares nd memories fade to dust

back in cyberspace

my, my, my...

my last post on this blog of mine was almost two years ago! has it really been that long since that day in december when, feeling blue all of a sudden, i thought i might as well make my own blog where i may write anything i want to write about. about life, about love (or the lack of it! and by the way, nothing has changed on this aspect of my life!), and so on and so forth.

gosh... how time does fly. every weekend, i feel at awe at how mondays seem to blur to fridays.

meantime, gotta go. have to watch lifehouse concert in an hour with my friend donna bonna!

yeeey! patron seats this time!